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January 8

Minsan ay mariin kong sinabi sa aking pamilya na ang kanilang pag-aaway ay nagpapakaba sa aming nahimasmasan na mahal sa buhay na maaaring magdulot ito sa kanyang muling pag-inom. Nabigla ako nang sinabi nila sa akin, ng may pagbibigay diin, “Hayaan mo siya!” Napagtanto ko na sinusubukan ko pa ring gawing maayos at madali ang lahat para sa alkoholiko, sapagkat hindi ko matanggap na ako ay walang kontrol laban sa alkoholismo sa kahinahunan tulad ng ginagawa ko sa mga aktibong taon.

Noon ko lamang natuklasan kung gaano kaganda ang pagpapakawala at hayaang ang Diyos na tulungan ako. Nang ako ay ganap na tumayo kung gaano ako kawalang lakas sa  sitwasyon, nagkatiwala ako na ang alkoholiko ay may kanya-kanyang Mas Mataas na Kapangyarihan at sama-sama, maisasagawa nila ang kanilang hinaharap. Para akong isang bagong tao dahil malaya ako sa patuloy na pangangailangan na bantayan siya, malayang mabuhay ng aking sariling buhay.

Pinahahalagahan ko ang alkoholiko sa aking buhay nang higit man sa mga masasabi ko. Nais ko ang kanyang kalusugan, kaligayahan, at kahinahunan, ngunit hindi ko magagawa ang mga bagay na ito para sa kanya. Siya at ang kanyang Mas Mataas na Kapangyarihan ang namamahala sa mga iyan. Maaari ko lang siyang mahalin, at kapag huminto ako upang isipin ito, sapat na iyon.

Paalala Ngayon

Ngayon pipiliin kong magtiwala sa aking Mas Mataas na Kapangyarihan, alam na magiging maayos ang lahat.

“Kung tayo ang magbibigay ng pagpayag, ang Diyos ang magbibigay ng kapangyarihan.”

Ang  Al-Anon Family Groups-Classic Edition

English Translation

I once emphatically told my family that their bickering was making our newly-sober loved one nervous and this might cause her to start drinking again. I was shocked when I was told, just as emphatically, “Well, let her!” I realized that I was still trying to make everything smooth and easy for the alcoholic, because I hadn’t accepted that I was just as powerless over alcoholism in sobriety as I had been during the active years.

It was then that I truly discovered how beautifully letting go and letting God can work. When I fully under stood how powerless I was over the situation, I was able to trust that the alcoholic has her own Higher Power and that, together, they can work out her future. I felt like a new person because I was free of the constant need to watch over her, free to live my own life.

I care about the alcoholic in my life more than I can say. I wish her health, happiness, and sobriety, but I can not hand these things to her. She and her Higher Power are in charge of that. I can only love her, and when I stop to think about it, that is enough.

 

Today’s Reminder

Today I choose to place my trust in that Higher Power, knowing that all is well.

 

“If we supply the willingness, God supplies the power.”

 

The Al-Anon Family Groups-Classic Edition